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The Princess 
REENI'm a princess. I've been blogging on this blog since 2004. I love cute things, pink, dresses, fairytales and tiaras. Shopping is my thing, make-up isn't. Being nineteen isn't easy, especially when you have to worry about grades, life and growing up. I'm currently a Mass Comm student in poly and hoping to become someone important in the media industry. Music is something else I'm into. You'll find me singing most of the time. What else? Oh, I found my prince (: |
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Friday, July 18, 2008 To you : I'm such a failure luh ! I guess I don't know much about you huhs. i never knew you were miserable. All i could see was a smile.. and all i could say that you're "cute". firstly, i never notice that about you at all. until i read that post. i guess there's a story behind it. a secret, a tale.. bad memories that hurt you. but i never notice. nothing. i guess, flaws are not really a big thing for me. nobody is perfect in this world. it hurts when i read your post. of course i care and i was miserable. no, not miserable with pity for you. but miserable for myself. I, can only find out something like that through a blog. I never knew if you were really happy when you laugh. things that i should know as a friend. but i don't? i don't know how to console you. all i can do is write a post specially for you. Everyone has a mask. I'm quite sure of that. yes, even me. i wear a mask everywhere i go. but ppl don't know. they just assume, that's me. when i look strong, i may be as fragile as a china doll inside. when i smile, my heart may be crying. sometimes when I act more high, calling myself princess. I just want a lil attention, a lil love. when i act nice or close to someone, i may be feeling mad inside. I understand the feeling of being mocked at. especially since young. since pri till sec, the words, the actions I got, hurts me like crap. but just not to feel left out, i push it down into my heart, i tolerate. all those mean words, all those schemes to leave me out in things. everything i see and hear, i pretend. i remember once, i had a close grp of frens in sch. we hang out, laugh during recess. one day, when the bell rings, they just rush off without me. i couldn't find them, and have recess myself. i saw them whisper. but i fake a smile. like it didn't matter i wasn't there. i was a strong girl, i don't need them. ah, those words that i said to myself. recently, smth similar happened in sch. yes, in poly. i hid it, though a caring fren notice. i thought everyone in class were great. i was lucky to have a good class for my new part of life. we are talked, laughed, have fun. one day, faci said we could choose our own grp. i was excited, a hope to be with frens. then i saw whispers. and i knew. out of the corners of my eye, i noticed. whispers in the class, draggin ppl out to talk to. those lil actions, i felt left out. guess i'm not pretty, or not much fun. with no common interests, bad personality. it hurt, and i guessed it showed to a fren. she left me a very caring sms and i'm grateful. now, it left me confused about our friendship. it's hard growing up with mocking in sch. and no one to talk about it to. compliments recieved, but you're not entirely happy about it. i understand. harmless to them, harmful to ourselves. be it a harmless joke, or smth they're just "saying" some ppl do take it to heart. i guess, like you, i kept things to myself. why? i wanted ppl to like me. it's stupid but it is, human nature. there are so so many things, ppl don't know about me. secret locked in for ages. it kinda explains why i'm afraid to meet ppl. bad experiences, bad memories. i have flaws, everyone do in fact. i try very hard to hide them. anyone would. anyone would want ppl to see their good points. but, can they see the real you then? without the flaws, who are you? i know you're quite a cheerful kind of guy :] ( unless i mess that piece of fact about you too ) really hope you can notice all the good points about you. rather than changing your flaws for others. i can make a list, really. your eyes -- that twinkle in your eyes when you spot something interesting. that spark in your eyes when you're high or genuinely happy. that innocence in your eyes when you're really blur. did you know that? your smile -- i really really like your smile. be it your laughter, your cheeky grins. i only notice your smile, never your flaw. it makes ppl happy when you laugh. i really hope that everytime you laugh, it's gonna be real happiness. did you know that? your heart -- your really kind heart. you care when your friends are hurt. you love people who you should love. did you know that? your personality/character -- i like how real you are ! :D you're mad when you see something unfair. you're hurt when your close/loved ones are. when you're tired, you'll rest. you treat ppl the way you want them to treat you :] you can say hi to anyone.. and make them feel warm. you, of course, make the world seem less of a cold world. especially ppl around you. did you know that? you are not an ugly duckling. don't feel down because of your flaws. don't stop smiling because others don't appreciate you. be proud because you have so many good points to be happy about. be happy, because you'll always have people who love you for who you are. i'll be here to care. i'll be here to lend you a helping hand.. and conquer it together :D xoxo, REEN. p.s. i dunno if you'll ever read this. but, i hope it helps :] |
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